Jun25
To My Super Daddy
By hexybaby  | 7 Comments »

 

你总是趁我不注意亲吻我
你总是在我被老妈从床上追着打到地上的时候抱着我用干瘦的后背帮我挡住拳头
你总是骑着自行车在公车后面陪我上学
你总是在大风天等在车站街我放学

你印象里我是什么样子
每年
不同的发型不同的样子不同的男朋友
可是你跟我说话的语气和声音从来没有变过

而我却…

从来没有主动打过电话给你
从来不记得你的生日是11月几号

从来没有主动去找过你
从来没有带过什么礼物给你
从来没有消息给你不管好的还是坏的

 

我知道你想要的特别少
想给的特别多

而我却…

从没给过你什么
甚至
从没给你机会给我什么

可是
我总是在某个夜里想起你
眼泪会不自觉的夺眶而出
我有深深的自责 愧疚 思念 心疼…
可是我没办法告诉你
我爱你 你是我的Super Daddy…

我多想捧个相册给你
把你钱包里那张破旧的我穿着绿色毛裤戴着大红花拧着腰傻乎乎的照片换掉
让你时时刻刻看见我的变化
让你知道我变化的原因
让你知道你的宝贝在自己长大
正如25年前你把那个“莹”字送给我的时候
所期望的那样……

 

我想买DQ的“SuperDaddy”蛋糕给你……

“老爸我最近超级爱拍照哦~
老爸我最近超级爱穿polo,哎呀,反正说了你也不知道啦
老爸我最近又重新翻出nirvana来听了,恩,就是那个公厕门上贴的那人
老爸我最近状况很差,不过我在努力喝奶
老爸我最近喜欢上一个人不过他不要我的哩 囧
老爸我还没涨工资 – =
老爸你看我是不是都长皱纹了 我是不是老了?
……
老爸我在咖啡厅 想你……”

Every Step

I’m a fool to be kind to you:
It’s not what the men in your life tend to do
Must be so strange; finding someone
who only accepts you

Rejection’s a lesson you’ve had
You’re lost in the anger you feel for your dad
But, oh, how he loves you,
There’s no doubt
With all his high hopes for you

I could push you away
I could say I don’t want you no more
I could drive you right into the floor
And tell you you’re useless;
Get used to it lady

But I’m big in believing that, baby, you’re bigger than that
It’s respect for yourself that you lack
And success; it’s a mood that you choose
With every step

I want to grow old with you
To hold your old hand and look back on our youth
I will be strong. Times I might not
I’m only human
I could push you away

With every step

So, be free like a bumble bee
Spread wings like a bird
Squawk like a peacock and
Let your voice be heard, it’s OK
I have no lock, key or a cage
You’ve got to want to stay

I won’t push you away
I won’t say I don’t want you no more
I won’t drive you right into the floor
But I’ll tell you you’re beautiful;
Get on with it lady

Coz I’m big in believing that, baby,
you’re bigger than that
It’s respect for yourself that you lack
And success; it’s a mood that you choose
With every step
So take a step
It’s just step by step

(我本来想把这个词翻译过来,但是发现,那种慈祥我找不到合适的语气,我想你能体会……)

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Jun12
关于KX 关于ta
By hexybaby  | 3 Comments »

6卷 整一个月,和Pentax KX一起,90%失望+8%惊喜+2%莫名。

失望的是,我以为这颗广角镜头能够给我新的灵感,可是恰好相反,它暴露了我对大画面构图根本无法掌控的弱点,原来在35mm的konica镜头里,一切我都知道该如何摆放,镜头忽然变大到28mm,很多东西在我毫无准备的情况下进入镜头,每次我眼睛里的重点在镜头里就变成那么小小的一坨,而且,因为广角的关系,感觉我怎么躲也躲不开那些“异物”……

惊喜的是,Pentax的镜头带给我的感觉,我只是说我个人的感受,Konica可以将胶卷的优势发挥到极致,比如DNP的色调和油润,Fuji的冷峻,到了Pentax肚子里好像人人都一样,出来的都是Pentax味,具体什么味我也不知道,感兴趣的话可以见下图……囧 这就导致我拿到片子后经常想不起来我上回用的什么卷。

莫名是那部分压根儿冲不出来。从一开始我就感觉KX的快门速度很诡异,因为TC是纯机械,我可以听的很清楚快门喀嚓的声音,KX的快门声里夹杂那种轴承被电池驱动的“嘶”声,听上去同一快门速度KX要慢很多,结果我一开始的几卷基本都没有看测光表(以前TC我也从来不看 – -),大多按照TC的标准调快1个档,结果……是的,黑洲非人那德行了就都。后来慢慢开始认真参照测光表,至少它可以保证我拍的出东西,然后再慢慢根据感觉调快/慢一档。不过,我准备下回入一些iso200以上的卷了,100的虽然细腻,但是架不住天一黑,一进屋子就歇菜了,我不能永远依赖B门啊。而且发现最近因为“复吸”导致严重手抖,甚至一开B门档就紧张的手带动浑身都在打晃。

所以,在我觉得有我终于可以有40%的几率用KX拍出我想要的效果的时候,我要短期告别它了,回到我所熟悉的TC,但是,那并不表示我放弃了,我只是需要一段时间重新拾起拍照的信心,并且重新学习构图,更重要的是,我每天睡觉前,看到TC孤独的呆在书架上,就觉得自己像个负心郎。

如果你能够听的懂我说的话,我想对你说,有那么些情感,比如我对你,比如我对ta,从表象上,ta在我手心,因为我的手心只能用来把握让我没有信心把握的那一个……

KX 1th – 卡西莫那一晚

Together with ..        Agfa vista 100f

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KX 2nd – 520 521 Be Joy,Be HapPei

Together with ..        Fuji ProplusII 100f

2

 

KX 3rd – 坐火车去传说中的雍和宫

Together with ..        Agfa Vista 100f

2

 

KX 4th – 后来我有了RightPack 那本来是一个约定 ……

Together with ..        Agfa Vista 100f

5

 

KX 5th – 我毛糙的跑进去只为了拍她

Together with ..        I’ve no idea …

 8

 

KX 6th – 那一天

Together with ..        I’ve no idea …

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我要尝试踩着崭新而踏实的步伐,温婉而隽永的继续……
So.. Hear we go..

 

 

Long Long Way to Go  (试听)

You held my hand and then you slipped away
And I may never see your face again
So tell me how do to fill the emptiness inside
Without love, what is life?

And anyone who knew us both can see
We always were the better part of me
I never wanted to be this free
All this pain, does it go away?

Then every time I turn around
And you’re nowhere to be found
I know

I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
To you, to you

From memory, there is no hiding place
Turn on the TV and I see you there
In every crowd there’s always someone with your face
Everywhere, trying not to care

Then every time I turn around
And you’re nowhere to be found

I know I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
To you, I wish you everythin’
And all the best that life can bring
I only hope you think of me sometimes, oh
And even though I feel the pain
I know that I will love again
The time will come, oh, and I’ll move on

I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, long way to go, got a long way to go
Before I can say goodbye, before I say goodbye
To all I ever knew, to all I ever knew
I got a long, I got a long, long way to go, long way to go
Before I can say, before I say, goodbye to you
Say goodbye, say goodbye
Oh, I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew

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Jun7
Let the love back in …
By hexybaby  | 3 Comments »

豆瓣说 2009年4月19日 我把这张专辑放到了09挚爱小曲的豆列中,说明那天开始,我对The orange lights的迷恋犹如对某个男人的迷恋一样,一发不可收拾。我不记得,第一次推荐那首《Life is still beautiful》的xiamier是谁,但我真的发自内心的谢谢你,那天起,这张专辑陪我走过多少孤寂的路,每当第一首《Let the love back in》的前奏响起,很多记忆的片段会自动浮现,比如“门体滑动 请勿靠近”、比如雕刻的薄荷清茶、比如巧克力慕斯……那些曾经我日复一日走过的无比艰难的路。

今晚,douban的The Orange Lights小组终于通过审核,去Last.fm翻他们的照片用来做小组封面时又偶然看到这首歌的MV,第一句出来配合主唱的眼神,整个人瞬间雾化了……

Life Is Beautiful

Life Is Still Beautful

曲目   · · · · · ·

01. Let The Love Back In
02. Sleepwalking
03. Whats Missing In Your Life
04. Life Is Still Beautiful
05. The Explanation
06. A Few Good Days
07. Balloons
08. Little Me Little You
09. Click Your Heels
10. My Guardian Angel

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Jun3
拒绝被维护
By hexybaby  | 7 Comments »

本blog是人写的,人是有思想的,思想是由自己掌控的。

拒绝被维护。